Hello hello!! First of all, I want to express my gratitude to you for visiting my blog. Existing for More was an idea that came to me one day while driving home from work. It didn’t have a name or even a purpose, but I could tell God was leading me somewhere. I said out loud “Blogging? Really?” But, as I continued to process I began to realize how beneficial other bloggers are for me in my journey. Whether the topic is fitness, nutrition, marriage or just being a Godly woman, I love learning from others. So I thought: Maybe I should share some experiences too.
I have a strong desire to be in community with like-minded people, specifically women, but for most of my life, I didn’t live in a way that made that possible. I was empty with a thirst that nothing in this world could quench. This emptiness took me deeper into alcoholism which led to dark places with dark people. It was a lonely life that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. On the outside, for the most part, everything seemed fine. But inside, I was kind of ready to just be done with this life. God has proven on more than one occasion, He isn’t even close to finished with me!
I hope this blog will help build community among females whose desires are similar to mine. Those who know we were put here for more and who are choosing to passionately pursue whatever more looks like.
What It’s All About
This blog is simply my experiences with God, faith, addiction, food, fitness, family and how they shaped the woman I am today. My sole purpose is to provide hope and support by sharing these things. All I can offer is common life struggles and situations and how I’ve learned from them. You might also get some ideas of new things to try (nutrition or fitness related or possibly ideas for your marriage or spiritual growth) and hopefully you’ll feel less alone in life and find community, either here or, within your own town, workplace, church, circle of friends.
I don’t claim to have expertise in the area of doing life, but I do have are a lot of examples of what didn’t work for me. I believe in sharing and being authentic because you never know who might benefit from hearing your experiences. My husband will tell you I’m strong willed, loud and extremely passionate about what I do and don’t believe in. These are my best qualities, and also my worst.
From struggles with alcohol, walking away from God, being on the outs with my family, unhealthy relationship with food and constantly going from one extreme to the other, I’ve had to learn some tough lessons. Unfortunately, pain is usually the best motivator for me to try something different.
I wish I could say my life immediately got better when I got sober in December 2008 at the age of 23. But unfortunately, that was not the case. I was done drinking, but I was not done running life my way. For the next few years, I continued pounding the square peg into the round hole. I did not take care of myself physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually.
What I learned is that I had a God size hole in my heart that no amount of money, sex, possessions, food, or substances could fill. I need God. And with Him, I can truly experience life. I don’t do it perfectly, or even well sometimes, but the key for me is learning from my mistakes and also from those who came before me.
In February of 2012, I went on my last first date with a handsome young man; on May 6, he asked me to be his wife. We were married in November – roughly 9 months after that first date. It hasn’t been perfect, but I wouldn’t want to do life with anyone other than Seth.
I was nervous to present him with my idea for this blog (I come up with lots of… projects). But from the moment I finished explaining, I had his support. So we are embarking on this journey together and who knows, you may hear from him time to time.
Whether your interest is fitness, food, God, single life or marriage, I have some stories to share.
I hope you’ll subscribe to my blog as we continue on our journey to exist for more.